Yakla\u015f\u0131k bir haftad\u0131r evden \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yorum, ikiz \u00e7ocuklar\u0131mla birlikte sabahtan mesaim ba\u015fl\u0131yor. Bilgisayar ba\u015f\u0131nda biriken i\u015flerimi bitirmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131p, bir yandan korona haberlerini takip ediyorum. Bu esnada\u00a0 \u00e7ocuklar\u0131ma oyun kurma, etraf\u0131 toplama, kahvalt\u0131 haz\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131 derken, tam mesai \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yorum. \u00d6\u011fle aralar\u0131 babaanne ve dedeye \u00e7ocuklar\u0131 b\u0131rak\u0131p, y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fc\u015f yapmak i\u00e7in evden burnumu d\u0131\u015far\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131yorum maskeli bir \u015fekilde! T\u00fcm yolda bana do\u011fru gelen insanlarla mesafemi korumak i\u00e7in azami \u00f6zen g\u00f6steriyorum. Aksiliktir ki y\u00fcz\u00fcm hi\u00e7 olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 kadar \u00e7ok ka\u015f\u0131n\u0131yor, kendimi alam\u0131yorum ka\u015f\u0131nmaktan. \u00c7ekine \u00e7ekine markete girip, bir \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131da t\u00fcm ihtiya\u00e7lar\u0131m\u0131 al\u0131p \u00e7\u0131k\u0131veriyorum. Bankamatik \u00f6n\u00fcnden ge\u00e7erken para \u00e7ekip \u00e7ekmemek aras\u0131nda kal\u0131yorum mesela, ke\u015fke eldiven de getirseydim diyerek bir sonraki sefere b\u0131rak\u0131yorum bu i\u015fi.<\/p>\n
T\u00fcm bu anlatt\u0131klar\u0131m yeni kayg\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131n eseri, bundan 2 hafta \u00f6ncesine kadar bundan \u00e7ok daha farkl\u0131 kayg\u0131lar\u0131m vard\u0131. \u015eimdi hi\u00e7 al\u0131\u015f\u0131k olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z ola\u011fand\u0131\u015f\u0131 bir s\u00fcreci deneyimliyoruz. G\u00f6remedi\u011fimiz minicik vir\u00fcs\u00fcn hi\u00e7 tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z, mesela tesad\u00fcfen yoldan ge\u00e7en biri taraf\u0131ndan bize bula\u015fma riskini bile d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmek zorunday\u0131z. Herkes t\u00f6hmet alt\u0131nda, kimin hasta olup olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 belli de\u011fil. \u015eu an benim i\u00e7in \u00e7ekirdek ailem d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda herkes potansiyel hasta stat\u00fcs\u00fcnde\u2026 G\u00fcvensizlik kol geziyor beynimin i\u00e7inde, en iyisi evde izole kal sen k\u0131z\u0131m diyorum i\u00e7imden.<\/p>\n
T\u00fcm y\u0131l yo\u011fun \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmaktan, sabah 06:40\u2019ta kalk\u0131p, ak\u015fam en erken 24:00\u2019te yatmaktan, kitap okumak i\u00e7in vakit bulamamaktan, yaz\u0131 yazmaya yeltenip sonunu getirememekten, \u00e7ocuklar\u0131m\u0131n sabah tatl\u0131\u015fl\u0131klar\u0131na \u015fahit olamamaktan yak\u0131n\u0131p durdum. \u015eimdi bunlar\u0131n hepsini yapabilecek durumday\u0131m, ama mental olarak \u015fu karga\u015fada bunlar\u0131n tad\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131karmak yine m\u00fcmk\u00fcn olmuyor. Bu yaz\u0131 bir ba\u015flang\u0131\u00e7 olur umar\u0131m!<\/p>\n
Sonra durup d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeye ba\u015fl\u0131yorum delicesine,\u00a0 evrenin bir b\u00fct\u00fcn oldu\u011funu, ben-biz bilincini, t\u00fcm ya\u015fanm\u0131\u015fl\u0131klar\u0131n hep bir \u00f6\u011fretisi oldu\u011funu, insanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n gidi\u015fat\u0131n\u0131, komple teorilerini, sevginin g\u00fcc\u00fcn\u00fc\u2026<\/p>\n
Yakla\u015f\u0131k bir ay daha evde olaca\u011f\u0131m, insan her \u015feye al\u0131\u015f\u0131yor misali bu rutine de adapte olup, kendi \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fcmlerimizi bulaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131za eminim. Ama havalar\u0131n \u0131s\u0131nmas\u0131 ile evdeki mahkumiyet hayat\u0131 giderek zorla\u015facak. Bug\u00fcne kadar hi\u00e7 \u00f6zlemi \u00e7ekmedi\u011fimiz \u015feylerin asl\u0131nda ne kadar da k\u0131ymetli oldu\u011funu anlayaca\u011f\u0131z bir \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131da, \u00f6rne\u011fin; uzun s\u00fcredir g\u00f6rmedi\u011fim can dostuma s\u0131ms\u0131k\u0131 sar\u0131lmay\u0131, \u00f6zg\u00fcrce bir cafede oturup kahvemi yudumlamay\u0131, kalabal\u0131klar aras\u0131nda avaz avaz \u015fark\u0131 s\u00f6yleyip, dinlemeyi, vapura binip deniz havas\u0131n\u0131 hi\u00e7 tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131m insanlarla birlikte solumay\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n
Eskinin rutini, bug\u00fcn\u00fcn \u00f6zlemi oluveriyor, buna da \u2018\u2019i\u015fte hayat!\u2019 deniyor a dostlar.<\/p>\n
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Yakla\u015f\u0131k bir haftad\u0131r evden \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yorum, ikiz \u00e7ocuklar\u0131mla birlikte sabahtan mesaim ba\u015fl\u0131yor. Bilgisayar ba\u015f\u0131nda biriken i\u015flerimi bitirmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131p, bir yandan korona haberlerini takip ediyorum. Bu esnada\u00a0 \u00e7ocuklar\u0131ma oyun kurma, etraf\u0131 toplama, kahvalt\u0131 haz\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131 derken, tam mesai \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yorum. \u00d6\u011fle aralar\u0131 babaanne ve dedeye \u00e7ocuklar\u0131 b\u0131rak\u0131p, y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fc\u015f yapmak i\u00e7in evden burnumu d\u0131\u015far\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131yorum maskeli bir \u015fekilde! T\u00fcm yolda […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":11,"featured_media":8192,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[11,32],"tags":[260,317,499,502,606,700],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/perihanciragoz.com\/dijitaltopuklar\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8191"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/perihanciragoz.com\/dijitaltopuklar\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/perihanciragoz.com\/dijitaltopuklar\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/perihanciragoz.com\/dijitaltopuklar\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/11"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/perihanciragoz.com\/dijitaltopuklar\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=8191"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/perihanciragoz.com\/dijitaltopuklar\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8191\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/perihanciragoz.com\/dijitaltopuklar\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/8192"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/perihanciragoz.com\/dijitaltopuklar\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=8191"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/perihanciragoz.com\/dijitaltopuklar\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=8191"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/perihanciragoz.com\/dijitaltopuklar\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=8191"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}