{"id":7656,"date":"2019-03-29T07:52:55","date_gmt":"2019-03-29T04:52:55","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.dijitaltopuklar.com\/?p=7656"},"modified":"2019-03-29T07:52:55","modified_gmt":"2019-03-29T04:52:55","slug":"bir-genc-kadinin-huzunlu-siiri-furug-ferruhzad","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/perihanciragoz.com\/dijitaltopuklar\/2019\/03\/bir-genc-kadinin-huzunlu-siiri-furug-ferruhzad\/","title":{"rendered":"Bir gen\u00e7 kad\u0131n\u0131n h\u00fcz\u00fcnl\u00fc \u015fiiri: F\u00fcru\u011f Ferruhzad"},"content":{"rendered":"

20. y\u00fczy\u0131l\u0131n en b\u00fcy\u00fck \u015fairlerinden biri say\u0131lan F\u00fcru\u011f Ferruhzad, Kale Grubu sponsorlu\u011funda haz\u0131rlad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z \u0130lham Veren Topuklar k\u00f6\u015femizde konu\u011fumuz.<\/em><\/h3>\n

\u201c\u015eiirlerim benden \u00f6nce de vard\u0131, ben onlar\u0131 yazmak i\u00e7in do\u011fmu\u015fum.\u201d<\/p><\/blockquote>\n

Hen\u00fcz 17 ya\u015f\u0131ndayken bir dergide yay\u0131nlad\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u015fiiriyle ortal\u0131\u011f\u0131 birbirine katan, bulundu\u011fu co\u011frafyan\u0131n kad\u0131na bi\u00e7ti\u011fi rolleri a\u015f\u0131p kendi tutkusunu kovalamaktan asla vazge\u00e7meyen bir \u015fair F\u00fcru\u011f Ferruhzad. \u2018Ne olursa olsun, ben buyum, b\u00f6yleyim!\u2019 dememiz icap eden durumlarda \u00e7abucak hat\u0131rlanmal\u0131, k\u0131sac\u0131k ya\u015fam \u00f6yk\u00fcs\u00fcnden ilham al\u0131nmal\u0131…<\/p>\n

F\u00fcru\u011f Ferruhzad kimdir?<\/strong><\/p>\n

F\u00fcru\u011f Ferruhzad, 5 Ocak 1935 tarihinde Tahran\u2019da do\u011fdu. \u015eah R\u0131za\u2019n\u0131n ordusunda subay olarak g\u00f6rev yapmakta olan babas\u0131 Muhammed Ferruhzad, b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc evdeki ataerkil ve otoriter anlay\u0131\u015f\u0131n daimi temsilcisiydi. Neyse ki babas\u0131n\u0131n kocaman bir de k\u00fct\u00fcphanesi vard\u0131 ve F\u00fcru\u011f, \u00e7ocuklu\u011funu hayal alemi ile kitaplar aras\u0131nda ge\u00e7irebildi. 14 ya\u015f\u0131ndayken gazeller yazmaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Ancak bu yazd\u0131klar\u0131 hi\u00e7bir zaman bulunamad\u0131 \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc kendi ritmini, sesini ve \u015fiirini denedi\u011fi bu karma\u015f\u0131k formdaki gazellerini babas\u0131n\u0131n bulmas\u0131ndan korktu\u011fu i\u00e7in, hepsini yazd\u0131ktan sonra yok ederdi. \u00dcniversiteye gitmesi s\u00f6z konusu olamayaca\u011f\u0131ndan F\u00fcru\u011f, liseyi meslek lisesi benzeri resim, diki\u015f ve el i\u015fleri \u00f6\u011frendi\u011fi bir okulda bitirdi.<\/p>\n

16 ya\u015f\u0131na geldi\u011finde ise, aile bask\u0131s\u0131ndan kurtulup kendi hayat\u0131n\u0131 kurmak isteyen bir\u00e7ok gen\u00e7 kad\u0131n gibi o da, evlenerek evden uzakla\u015fmay\u0131 se\u00e7mi\u015fti. Kendisinden 15 ya\u015f b\u00fcy\u00fck olan Perviz \u015eapur, uzaktan akrabas\u0131yd\u0131 ve edebiyatla, sanatla ilgili biri olmas\u0131yla F\u00fcru\u011f\u2019un evlenmekte diretti\u011fi bir koca aday\u0131 olmu\u015ftu. Y\u0131llar sonra verece\u011fi bir r\u00f6portajda \u201c16 ya\u015f\u0131mdaki bu abs\u00fcrd a\u015fk ve evlilik, gelecekteki ya\u015fant\u0131m\u0131n temellerini bozmu\u015ftu asl\u0131nda…\u201d diyecekti.<\/p>\n

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\u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 F\u00fcru\u011f ve e\u015fi Perviz \u015eapur<\/em><\/figcaption><\/figure>\n

Bir y\u0131l sonra o\u011flu Kamyar\u2019\u0131 do\u011furdu ve annelik tecr\u00fcbesiyle beraber hayat\u0131 daha da karma\u015f\u0131k hale geldi. E\u015fiyle aras\u0131 h\u0131zl\u0131 bir \u015fekilde bozuldu. Bu s\u0131rada F\u00fcru\u011f, yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u015fiirlerden birini yay\u0131nlanmas\u0131 i\u00e7in Ro\u015fenfekr Dergisi\u2019ne g\u00f6ndermi\u015fti. 17 ya\u015f\u0131ndayken yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u2018G\u00fcnah\u2019 \u015fiiri, derginin ba\u015f edit\u00f6r\u00fc Nasir Hodayar ile ili\u015fkisi \u00fczerine yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Takma isimle yay\u0131nlanan \u015fiir, b\u00fcy\u00fck tepki toplam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Bir kad\u0131n\u0131n i\u015fledi\u011fi bir g\u00fcnah\u0131 \u2018lezzet dolu bir g\u00fcnah\u2019 diyerek anlatm\u0131\u015ft\u0131! O y\u0131llarda o co\u011frafyada, g\u00f6r\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f \u015fey de\u011fildi…<\/p>\n

G\u00fcnah<\/strong><\/p>\n

G\u00fcnah i\u015fledim lezzet dolu bir g\u00fcnah<\/em>
\nTitreyen esrik bir tenin yan\u0131nda<\/em>
\nTanr\u0131m ne bileyim ne yapt\u0131m ben<\/em>
\nO karanl\u0131k susku dolu zulada<\/em>
\nO karanl\u0131k susku dolu zulada<\/em>
\nBakt\u0131m g\u00f6zlerine gizemleriyle dolu<\/em>
\nG\u00f6zlerimin \u00e7aresiz isteklerinden<\/em>
\nKalbim g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcmde \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131n\u0131p durdu<\/em>
\nO karanl\u0131k susku dolu zulada<\/em>
\nYan\u0131nda darmada\u011f\u0131n oturdum<\/em>
\nDudaklar\u0131ma heves d\u00f6kt\u00fc dudaklar\u0131<\/em>
\nDeli kalbimin \u00fcz\u00fcnc\u00fcnden kurtuldum<\/em>
\nA\u015fk\u0131n \u00f6yk\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc okudum kulaklar\u0131na:<\/em>
\nSeni istiyorum ey benim cananem!<\/em>
\nEy ba\u011fr\u0131 can ba\u011f\u0131\u015flayan, seni<\/em>
\nSeni ey a\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131m benim divanem!<\/em><\/p>\n

\u015eiir fazlas\u0131yla dikkat \u00e7ekince, ba\u015f edit\u00f6r ve \u015fiirin muhattab\u0131 Hodayar, F\u00fcru\u011f ile ya\u015fad\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 pornografik bir dille anlatt\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir yaz\u0131 dizisine ba\u015flad\u0131. Neticede \u015fiiri de F\u00fcru\u011f\u2019un yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00f6\u011frenildi ve ortal\u0131k kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131. E\u015fi, babas\u0131; herkes \u00fczerine geliyordu. Sinir krizleri ge\u00e7iren F\u00fcru\u011f, intihar\u0131 bile denedi.<\/p>\n

\u2018G\u00fcnah\u2019 \u015fiiriyle ismi duyulan F\u00fcru\u011f, ba\u015fka dergilerde de \u015fiirlerini yay\u0131nlamaya devam etti. Evli bir kad\u0131n olarak \u015fiir yazmak onun i\u00e7in bir hobi, ekstra bir ilgi alan\u0131 gibiydi ancak zamanla, asl\u0131nda hep oldu\u011fu gibi, \u015fiir onun \u00f6nceli\u011fi haline gelecekti. Kocas\u0131 art\u0131k dergilerle ve yay\u0131nevleriyle g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fmek i\u00e7in Tahran\u2019a gidip gelmesini onaylam\u0131yordu. Babas\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6lgesi de h\u00e2l\u00e2 \u00fczerindeydi. Bir ev kad\u0131n\u0131 olmay\u0131 m\u0131 se\u00e7ecekti, \u015fair mi olacakt\u0131?<\/p>\n

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1952\u2019de, ilk \u015fiir kitab\u0131 Esir yay\u0131nland\u0131. Romantik, erotik ve bazen de feminist temalar \u00e7evresinde dola\u015fan \u015fiirleri, modern \u0130ran \u015fiirine muazzam bir katk\u0131 niteli\u011findeydi. D\u00f6nemin \u00fcnl\u00fc modern \u015fairleri Nadir Nadirpur ve Feridun-i Mu\u015firi gibi isimlerden ilham alan F\u00fcru\u011f Ferruhzad, edebiyat d\u00fcnyas\u0131nda gitgide daha pop\u00fcler hale geliyor, farkl\u0131 dergilerden teklifler ve r\u00f6portaj istekleri al\u0131yordu. Ancak bu durum, e\u015fi Parviz i\u00e7in hi\u00e7 de i\u00e7 a\u00e7\u0131c\u0131 de\u011fildi. Neticede Ferruhzad ve e\u015fi, 1955 y\u0131l\u0131nda, o\u011fullar\u0131 hen\u00fcz bir ya\u015f\u0131ndayken bo\u015fand\u0131lar. \u0130ran\u2019da uygulanan \u015feriat yasalar\u0131 gere\u011fi, \u00e7ocuk babada kalacakt\u0131. \u015eapur, o\u011fullar\u0131 Kamyar\u2019\u0131 y\u0131llar boyunca annesine hi\u00e7 g\u00f6stermedi.<\/p>\n

\u00c7ocu\u011fundan ayr\u0131 d\u00fc\u015fmek, maruz kald\u0131\u011f\u0131 insanl\u0131k d\u0131\u015f\u0131 muamele ve iftiralar F\u00fcru\u011f\u2019un psikolojisinin ciddi \u015fekilde bozulmas\u0131na neden oldu ve gen\u00e7 \u015fair, birka\u00e7 ay boyunca hastanede tedavi g\u00f6rmek durumunda kald\u0131. Buradan ayr\u0131ld\u0131ktan sonra da babas\u0131n\u0131n evine d\u00f6nmek hi\u00e7 i\u00e7ine sinmedi, bo\u015fand\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7in ve \u00fcst\u00fcne \u00fcstl\u00fck bir de \u015fiir yazmaya devam etti\u011fi i\u00e7in babas\u0131 onu su\u00e7lamaya devam ediyordu. K\u0131sa bir s\u00fcre sonra Tahran\u2019da yaln\u0131z ya\u015famaya ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n

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\u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0F\u00fcru\u011f ve karde\u015fi Emir Mesud<\/em><\/figcaption><\/figure>\n

1956\u2019da ikinci \u015fiir kitab\u0131 Duvar yay\u0131nland\u0131. \u0130lkiyle benzer temalar\u0131 i\u015fledi\u011fi kitab\u0131yla ilgi \u00e7ekmeye devam etti. K\u0131sa s\u00fcreyle bir tiyatroda \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131 ve ertesi y\u0131l, Avrupa\u2019ya seyahat etti. \u0130talya\u2019da k\u0131sa bir s\u00fcre film setlerinde \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131ktan sonra Almanya\u2019ya karde\u015fi Emir Mesud\u2019un yan\u0131na gitti. Burada kald\u0131\u011f\u0131 s\u00fcre boyunca Alman \u015fiiri ile ilgilendi, Almanca \u00f6\u011frendi ve ilgisini \u00e7eken modern Alman \u015fiirlerinden baz\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 Fars\u00e7a\u2019ya \u00e7evirdi. 1957\u2019de tekrar Tahran\u2019a d\u00f6nd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde karde\u015fine \u2018Buray\u0131 \u00f6zledim, me\u011fer benim yerim tozlu Tahran sokaklar\u0131ym\u0131\u015f\u2019 yazacakt\u0131.<\/p>\n

“\u015eiir kalbin dilidir. Ben bir kad\u0131n\u0131m. Kalbimle duygular\u0131m bir erke\u011finkinden elbette farkl\u0131d\u0131r; e\u011fer bir erke\u011fin sesiyle konu\u015fursam y\u00fcrekten konu\u015fmam\u0131\u015f olurum.”<\/em><\/p><\/blockquote>\n

1958\u2019de \u0130ran\u2019a d\u00f6nd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc \u015fiir kitab\u0131 \u0130syan\u2019\u0131 yay\u0131nlad\u0131. Hen\u00fcz 24 ya\u015f\u0131nda yay\u0131nlad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bu kitap i\u00e7in sonradan \u015f\u00f6yle demi\u015fti: \u201cHen\u00fcz tamamen \u015fekillenmemi\u015ftim; kendi stilimi, dilimi ve entelekt\u00fcel konseptimi bulamam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Aile hayat\u0131 dedi\u011fimiz k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck ve k\u0131s\u0131tlay\u0131c\u0131 bir ortamdayd\u0131m ama sonra aniden t\u00fcm bunlardan uzakla\u015ft\u0131m. \u00c7evrem de\u011fi\u015fti. Duvar ve \u0130syan kitaplar\u0131 asl\u0131nda hayat\u0131m\u0131n iki evresi aras\u0131ndaki umutsuz birer \u00e7eki\u015fmeydiler; bir t\u00fcr kurtulu\u015ftan \u00f6nceki son nefeslerimdi.\u201d<\/p>\n

Tahran\u2019da tan\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00fcnl\u00fc \u0130ranl\u0131 y\u00f6netmen ve yazar \u0130brahim G\u00fclistan, F\u00fcru\u011f Ferruhzad\u2019\u0131n hayat\u0131nda yeni bir evre olacakt\u0131. G\u00fclistan Film Organizasyon \u015eirketi\u2019nde sekreter olarak i\u015fe ba\u015flam\u0131\u015f, k\u0131sa s\u00fcrede yetene\u011fi ke\u015ffedilince \u015firkette edit\u00f6r olarak y\u00fckselmi\u015fti. Film kurgusu i\u00e7in e\u011fitim almak \u00fczere \u0130ngiltere\u2019ye gitti ve d\u00f6nd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde de belgesel projeler \u00fczerinde \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmaya ba\u015flad\u0131. Bu s\u0131rada G\u00fclistan Film i\u00e7in yap\u0131lan di\u011fer projelerle ilgileniyor, baz\u0131 filmlerde k\u0131sa roller al\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n

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Y\u00f6netmenlik becerisini burada ortaya koyan F\u00fcru\u011f, Tebriz\u2019deki bir c\u00fczzaml\u0131lar evi ile ilgili bir belgesel haz\u0131rlamas\u0131 i\u00e7in teklif ald\u0131. B\u00f6ylece bilinen ilk filmi Ev Karad\u0131r (Khaneh Siah Ast) ortaya \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131. C\u00fczzam hastalar\u0131n\u0131n izole ya\u015fam\u0131n\u0131 \u015fiirsel bir dille anlatan k\u0131sa belgesel, k\u0131sa s\u00fcrede olduk\u00e7a ilgi \u00e7ekti ve 1964\u2019te, Almanya Oberhausen\u2019deki Uluslararas\u0131 K\u0131sa Film Festivali\u2019nde En \u0130yi K\u0131sa Belgesel \u00f6d\u00fcl\u00fcn\u00fc kazand\u0131.<\/p>\n